Everything Happens For A Reason. Even In Your Writing.
Art For Art's Sake: Vol 2 Part 15
A couple of months back, I was in a self-conducted couple therapy for me and my online writing.
I realised this relationship hadn't turned out as I hoped it would. And while I am giving my all to it (and even falling sick because of it), the same love isn't flowing back to me. Online writing itself isn't bad, but something is blocking the flow of love from its side. And, in turn, I also am not feeling like giving it much love.
We both are good partners, and I want this relationship to stay alive.
If something is not working, it means that something needs a check-up. So I dived deep into introspection. What I discovered made me slap myself on the back of my head.
While, yes, I am not getting as much emotional satisfaction from my online writing as I would like, I was missing out on noticing how much it was helping me build a better relationship with Writing itself. When I started publishing my work online, I did have certain expectations. But what I got back was far more meaningful than the metrics.
The purpose of my writing online was to find myself as a writer and build the habit of writing consistently.
On August 1st, I celebrated the 2nd anniversary of my Medium and Substack publication. And what these two years have taught me is
who I am as a writer
what are my limits as a writer
what I like or don't like as a writer
what is it that I'd like to express through my writing and how I would prefer to do so
So it would be unjust to say that online writing has loved me back. It has, just in a way I didn't know I needed.
Now that I have learnt this lesson, I am working to revive my relationship with my online writing in a healthy, sustainable and fun direction.
Have faith in your writing dreams and flow with it. Nothing goes to waste. Everything happens for a reason, even in your writing. Eventually, the dots will connect.
